The last few months have been insane! There has hardly been no time to even look at the computer let alone get on it-trying to work get Sissykitty to cheer practice; cheer pictures and the kids at school stuff---just wears a person out. Then Speedracer had some issues at school and I had to go and talk to the teach and deal with that; and that very same day I found out that my mother was in trouble. Then the next I started college. Trying to get my mom all squared away with what she has to deal with and running her everywhere and dealing with college + husband and kids; has been exhausting. I had my first test in college on Tuesday and bombed--I got a D-first D of my life! I told hubby after that; I just can't run my mom everywhere and run places and errands that he wants me to either---I have to study! My grants and me getting into the nursing program depends on my grades and I cannot have anything like this anymore. He understood and has been a bit more forgiving and my mom has also. Hubby really has stepped up since I started college. He helps out with housework and the kids homework and makes sure they have good meals on the nights I'm not here. Having his support has helped make this much easier. I just pray that I get through this. I feel so ancient.
With college and Sissykitty doing cheerleading; it seems like that last few months has been a blur. It seems as all I have done is take tests and I am so out of practice I study and study; feel pretty confident I know what I just read; I get to the test---and I turn blank. I totally forget everything I had studied and I end up bombing the test. I feel so inept to do this 10 years has definitely been way too long to wait. So much is riding on this--I HAVE to get at least a C in all courses to keep my grant and also to keep in the nursing program. I don't know what I'm going to do--except for maybe try and study more but I don't know how that will help me from freezing up at test time.Also, we've had to move Speedracer back to the first grade. Last year he had some behavior problems, wanted to talk all the time, socialize instead of doing school work-that this year, when he has grown, he didn't learn all he should have last year-so that has put him behind. So instead of seeing him struggle all year and possibly fail, we went ahead and moved him back. Looking at it now, we shouldn't have started him until he was 6--he was a very immature 5 year old. Hindsight is always 20/20. **sigh**Doodles has figured out how to pull herself up to her knees. As soon as she figures out how to pull herself up on her feet, I feel she will be unstoppable She is growing so fast :(
We are dissecting a cat in Biology right now and I know it sounds gross—but it has turned out to be really cool! We just cut open the abdomen and could see the intestines, gall bladder—it was awesome! I can’t wait until next quarter when we really get to ‘dig in’. Doodles is now pulling herself up and walking around furniture. She is also trying to climb out of her walker and climb up the couch. She has taken a step here and there; but nothing to really consider it a big first step. She is just growing too fast-she is only 8 months old and doing all this already. Hubby and I celebrated our 10 year wedding anniversary last weekend. We didn’t have a lot of money to spend; so we went to a sportman’s extravaganza—not exactly what I pictured for our 10 year; but at least we got to spend some much needed time alone and that’s all that really matters.
Doodles had her first run with sickness this weekend. Speedracer had the flu-bug on Wednesday; stayed home from school with it-I thought I had kept him and her separated good enough; but Doodles got sick about 6pm on Saturday night. I felt so sorry for her--she threw up so much between 6p and midnight and she would get this terrified look on her face right before she would get sick; then after she would look up at me and then place her head on my shoulder. I felt so bad for her I called the nurses line and they said it was a good thing I was still bf-that is lighter on their stomach than formula. I think I will start her back on solids today-just bland things; bananas, rice cereal type stuff. Hubby went to the store Saturday night and bought her pedialyte-but all they had was the flavored kind and she would touch it at all-so yesterday I bought her unflavored and I think I maybe got 2 oz in her. She doesn't really like it much; but I figure some is better than none. She was the happiest sick baby I have ever seen. She never cried, fussed-nothing. She was just as happy as ever-just took little breaks to get sick. Speedracer felt so bad--he felt this was his fault that she got sick. We just tried to explain that all kids get sick and it was nobody's fault. I hope he understood.